Verses and encouragement and reassurances can come later, after a person is sure of your grief for them. When I was at my darkest, the songs and verses and words that came from those I knew were truly for me meant the most. Those that had walked the darkness with me were the ones that I trusted to speak into my soul.
Read MoreWhen a crisis hits, when you have to enter a battle for your family, when there is a specific fight for you, you need to have laser focus. There is not much energy to spare when you’re in the middle. I believe that we need to focus on these areas - spiritual, emotional, mental, and physical.
Read MoreI forget sometimes. I get living my life, worrying about the everyday things like meal planning and finishing school and I forget that every minute of every day we are in a battle.
Every day Satan is attacking the family. Either my family, or your family, or those around us. When my family almost fell apart, I was acutely aware of the battle. And I put on my armour and fought hard against the enemy. But when things calmed down, I forgot again.
Read MoreThe word small has been coming up in conversations between God and I lately. When I spent two weeks with my kids and their stomach flu instead of editing the webinar I wanted to get out there. When I’ve been trying to launch a book out into the world and the numbers are small. When I’m thinking about still finding my place in this new life. God keeps whispering small to me. And although I have not fully grasped the whole concept of what He’s trying to tell me yet, He was very clear about one thing. Forgiving the small.
Read MoreAll my life I’ve struggled with feeling loved. Maybe that’s common to all women and we just don’t talk about it. But there it is. I’ve told myself that I am not loved or I am unloveable or that I have to earn people’s love. The result is often working too hard to earn it.
Read MoreLast spring it was time to take family pictures. I had gotten the package as a gift to my mother in law for Christmas and intended to have new ones taken of our family at the same time.
There was only one problem.
These were the first family pictures since the affair and I wasn’t sure what to think.
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If you’ve been a Christian for any length of time, you know exactly what that means. Peter comes to Jesus and asks him, “How many times am I expected to forgive the same person?” I might have phrased it as, “This person is driving me insane. When can I stop speaking to them?”
Read MoreI was acutely aware of everything going on in my body. My hands were shaking. I was breathing hard. My stomach was rebelling. I was hot and cold all at once. I wanted to cry, I wanted to scream, I wanted to run away, I wanted to curl up in a ball.
Read MoreI see you standing there in the corner.
You’ve failed. Again. You know it and I know it. You gave into your flesh, into temptation. You’re living in despair. You’ve doubted God in the middle of trials. The why doesn’t really matter as much as, we have found ourselves here. Standing in the corner. In the shadows.
Read MoreWhat if God had written the Old Testament the way we curate our Instagram feed?
Read MoreI love all the “things” about Christmas. White twinkling lights make my whole life better.
Read MoreI have this weird Christmas tradition. Christmas trees and Christmas lights in general are one of my favourite aspects of Christmas, so each year on Christmas Eve, I sleep on the couch with the tree lights on.
Read MoreDo you ever feel like you’re kind of two different people? I’ve felt like that a lot this past year and its an unsettling feeling.
Read MoreChristmas is my absolute favourite time of year. I love it when everything is so magical. The lights are up and twinkling.
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