depression — Old Blog Posts for Jen

Alone

Do you ever feel alone? Even in the middle of a big church, or in a group of friends, or with family that love you?

depression, hope, ScriptureJennifer HolmesAugust 28, 2018Elijah's faith, Elijah's discouragement, Feeling alone, I Kings 19, depression, friendshipComment

Why, God?

Why?

It’s a question we all ask. And often. There are so many things about this world, about what goes on in our lives, about pretty much any situation, that we just don’t get.

And there will be those who will tell you that you shouldn’t question. That even if you do question in your heart, you should certainly never question God out loud.

depression, hope, ScriptureJennifer HolmesAugust 14, 2018why God, Elijah's cave, Elijah's discouragement, Elijah, Answers from God, depression, I Kings 19Comment

Supernatural Strength

Have you ever thought to yourself, I just can’t handle this?

We throw around the phrase, “God won’t give you more than you can handle” often in christian circles. There’s only one problem. I don’t buy it. I often feel overwhelmed and lacking in wisdom and wondering how in the world I’m going to get through something. I think God frequently gives me more than I can handle. But that’s the point.

God's Provision

I’ve had a battle this year with my emotions feeling like a roller coaster. Up and down, happy and depressed, overwhelmed and carefree, loved and unloved. If you can name one extreme to the other, I’ve probably felt it this year. Maybe in the same day. Its partly because of this that I’ve come to love the prophet Elijah and his story. Or really, the story of God’s response to him.

depression, hope, ScriptureJennifer HolmesJuly 10, 2018Elijah, I Kings 19, depression, God's provision, Elijah's faith, despairComment

Tired of the Battle

Everything I’ve been thinking or feeling the last couple of weeks has been leading to one word. Battle.

I hate it. I get tired. Some days I’m tired of battling my body, going to battle for other people, but mostly, battling myself. Battling my own thoughts and my own emotions. Right now my body is betraying me in the regular ways of pain and not being able to feel half of my face, but also in roller coaster emotions and periods of dark depression.

Crisis Mode

When a crisis hits, when you have to enter a battle for your family, when there is a specific fight for you, you need to have laser focus. There is not much energy to spare when you’re in the middle. I believe that we need to focus on these areas - spiritual, emotional, mental, and physical.

I Am My Feelings

I gave the pit almost an entire day. And many calories. And many hours of tv. And tears. And the whole day I was wondering what I would write about this week. How could I offer hope when I was sitting in the dark?