Its amazing to me how many times I can look back and see how one small decision changed the course of my life.
An amazing two weeks has past. I can look back and see the one small decision that brought about these two weeks. When I decided to say yes to God and speak to those teens about my depression I had no idea that the next year would bring about all this. In the past two weeks I have gotten several emails from Pastors telling me that they read my book and thought it was useful. I’ve had people text me pictures holding it up and saying they’re excited to read it. And most exciting for me was I’ve been asked to speak at three different events. I think I’ve been walking around with a perpetual smile on my face:) Its long been a dream of mine to have more opportunities to speak. I love everything about it. I love the hours of prayer and study that go into choosing a topic and making an outline. I love finding just the right illustrations and phrases. I love practicing in my head for hours on end. And I also love the actual speaking. I don’t so much enjoy the nightmares I usually have the few days before:) I truly believe that God put this passion in my heart. So to get some more opportunities to speak has been wonderful. Its still amazing to me that God would use me in this way, but He’s amazing that way!
In a time like this, its easy to get caught up in the big moments. The special emails, the events, etc. But for today, I’ve been dwelling on the small, seemingly insignificant moments that started all of this. What if I had said no to God that day? What opportunities, what blessings would I have missed? What have I missed and don’t even know it from all the times I did tell God no?
Every little decision we make is so important. In that sense, there are no small, insignificant moments in life. Every time we tell God yes, every time we are faithful in some task, every time we step out and do something new, every time we serve yet another day in what seem to be small ways, God is taking all of those things and weaving them together into something amazing. He is knitting together our passions and His purposes and building our lives into a beautiful creation that points others towards Him. Always towards Him. And that’s the big, amazing part. That we get to glorify Him and bring the knowledge of His grace to others. This thought has helped me today as I homeschooled, did laundry and almost caught up the ironing:) After all, not every day is big and exciting, but every day is filled with small yeses. And all the yeses add to up to a life that God can use in so many different ways.