We got the keys to our new house last week.
In case our life seems confusing – because it is – we moved to Barrie suddenly in October and found a rental. We then sold our house, that we were renting out because we lived at the camp, and bought one here. So we finally closed last Thursday.
We got a good deal for the city. Its an older house that needs some updating for sure and we’re putting in a second bathroom but its a nice house in a nice neighbourhood with a big backyard and some big trees.
So I should be thrilled right?
I went to the lawyers, picked up the key and waited for the excitement to hit. It never came. Still hasn’t.
What is my problem, you might be thinking. I was too. I thought about it all weekend.
First of all, I don’t want to move. Really, really, don’t want to move. No one loves it I’m sure, but this will now be the third move in less than 10 months. Insanity. At least this one I knew was coming, so I didn’t really unpack the last time. It will be very nice to have all my things out again and have my pictures and decor but that will require unpacking. So there’s that – moving is so. much. work. And the house is filthy. And we’re getting some renos done.
But I think what it really comes down to is, I’m done with change. Almost every single aspect of my life changed a few months ago. And it was necessary, if painful, and it has turned out amazingly, as God’s plans do, and I love my new life, even if it took some adjusting. But I’m not sure I have it in me to change even this one thing. Even if it is for the better. The kids will be happier, the dog will be happier, I’ll have a brand new ensuite, and I just look at it all and think, I’m tired of this. I should be ecstatic and I’m not.
I want to hide out in my bed, but instead I’m meeting the water guy on Thursday and the ESA guy on Friday and I picked out tiles and I’m trying to find a vanity. Because life throws us curve balls and hard days and mixed emotions. But there is always strength to go on. Even on the days I want to stay in bed. Because I’ve learned a little formula for these days.
Acknowledge the emotions and that life stinks sometimes.
And then get your strength from God.
Because some days are hard. And some days you tell your husband that you’ll do this one last move and then its stay in the same house or divorce. I may or may not be kidding about that one.
But this little formula is exactly what I would love this community to be about. To be able to share that life gets hard sometimes, but to pass along the hope that God is so good. And He imparts His strength to us – its there for the asking! Maybe today you’re like me and need someone to come along side you and say, Yup, this stinks, but God is good and you can do it through His strength.
And also, if you could pray with me that there would miraculously be a vanity that I love that is less than I was hoping to spend on the entire bathroom. Amen.
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